I like Fried Doves with Pickled Snake Bile (be as innocent as doves and wise as serpents)

Let me take you back to the year 2007:

Manila Hotel

Long Striped Gown: Salvatore Ferragamo

For someone whose been branded as heartless. I now wonder and feel as if that heart still ceases to exist, but it just so happened to be hollow inside.
Disillusioned by fairy tales, turned into stories of hate. Dashing princes who soon prove to be but nothing but detestable jerks. Sometimes I can't help but wonder why we all look forward to loving when we always end up getting hurt.
To be in a quest of the one lost love to fill the hollow space within. Though, perhaps that space was meant to stay as it is....
The one love we seek is somehow love in the vast world of the other hopeless romantics till some goddess knocks him off his feet and sweeps him off.
While the helpless girl stays amongst the crowd still looking, not aware that she will never find him for he is already entangled in someone else's arms.
"Love eludes those who seek to find it." Yet, if we give up hope and stop to seek for it, it could someone forever be lost amidst the crowd and never find it's way back."

Now, fast forward October 01, 2010:

"Goodbyes are painful but are an inevitable part of life. It's something we have to go through a certain point as we get older and hopefully make us somehow a bit stronger.

I wish to thank you for making me smile;

for having stayed even for just a little while.

You're someone I always wanted to hold,

but you have grown too distant and cold.

Thanks for everything that you have done.

You're heaven's gift, cupid's curse all in one...

A moment of bliss always too soon taken & gone.

Thank you for breathing color to my life;

but then, love is but a double edged knife.

It cuts too deep, but no one will see...

The pain lingers, agonizing and torturous as it should be...

Is it a game we play only to lose?

A pawn on the chessboard that's just being used.

There were times when I tried to reason,

but my heart just kept committing treason.

Please do remember that you'll always be missed.

No regrets, no bitter feelings just a solemn wish.

I do want you to be happy with another girl's kiss.

And, I pray that you will find your love;

the one I yearn for, but cannot have.

It hurts that the time has come for me to let go,

I will smile for you though you won't see the tears flow..

I think that you should know -

Baby it burns, but baby I truly love you so. 

NOTE:

Words that come from the brain make good money, but I believe the most beautiful

and most sincere words ever spoken or written will always come from the heart. ♥

I was told this was out of character but then again, say hello to that part of me which you seldom see or hear."

I haven't gone crazy or anything like that at all. Please don't worry about me, LOL! x) My friend Fauxxx has just tagged me on Facebook and has linked me to a site of past conversations. Hence the title, which was also culled from those long talks/chats. I am amazed at how some things haven't changed at all. :P

On a brighter note, my Dad once told me that "Men should always find women they want to be with for the rest of their lives; it shouldn't be the other way around." Now call me old fashioned but I really haven't found that person who knocked me off my feet yet. And I have long decided that I wanted to go with the old fashioned theme on this aspect of my life. Hopefully, when that time comes I won't really get knocked down literally. x) 

*Keeping my fingers crossed that Fauxxx won't read this because it might shock him. O.o And he actually might comment and tease me. LOL!

I also know that I have some followers who are not into makeup so here's sharing a little something about me to the rest of you. 

Paul & Joe - Face Color - Love (No. 7)

Going through my backlog folder. :)

Paul & Joe Face Color

Paul & Joe Packaging is always pretty. :3

Directions: 

Take a desired amount onto your brush. Pat brush once on the back of the hand to spread powder more evenly onto the brush. Then apply to cheeks and desired areas of the face. Use it as you like, individually or mixed. (link.)

Paul & Joe - Face Color - Love (7) - 4.5 g

Description:

Each PAUL & JOE Face Color set features two complementary shades of creamy color in a cute and convenient compact! Used individually or blended, these long lasting colors adapt to match your mood and complete any look. Housed in a compact with chrysanthemum detailing and a built-in mirror and shipped in PAUL & JOE's always-incredible packaging. (Description taken from this link.)

Ingredients:

Talc, Dimethicone, Squalane, Aluminum Distearate, C10-30 Cholesterol/Lanosterol Esters, Citrus Aurantium Dulcis (Orange) Flower Water, Lilium Candidum Bulb Extract, Prunus Armeniaca (Apricot) Kernel Oil, Rosmarinus Officinalis (Rosemary) Leaf Extract, Simmondsia Chinensis (Jojoba) Seed Oil, Sodium Hyaluronate, Tocopherol, Butylene Glycol, Mineral Oil (Paraffinum Liquidum), Silica, Synthetic Fluorphlogopite, Water (Aqua), Methylparaben, Propylparaben, Fragrance (Parfum). May Contain (+/-): Iron Oxides (CI 77491), Iron Oxides (CI 77492), Iron Oxides (CI 77499), Mica, Titanium Dioxide (CI 77891). -link

swatch

As the other color is too light I will refer to it as a highlight. :P

Colors:  a subtle pinkish highlight - a bright pink blush - a lovely peachy pink with bits of shimmer that makes the skin look healthy & glowing .

- This product might look a bit scary in the pan because the pink looks so bright but it isn't once it's applied on the cheeks. 

- The two shades can be used alone or blended together for a lovely color. I tend to mix the 2 colors together.

PROS:
- Pretty packaging! (Always a plus in my book!)
- Each color can be used individually or together so that's 1 highlighter and 2 blushes. 
- Did not break me out.
- No scent.
- The color/s is such a pretty pink!


CONS:
- Might be expensive to some. This blush costs over $20.
- Staying power isn't so great. Fades after 3-4 hours on my oily face.
- As with all P&J products this may be hard to get.


NEUTRAL:
- The blush requires about two swipes for the color to show up. I prefer my blushes to be buildable rather than make me look like a clown in just one swipe. 


- There is no applicator. I never use the ones that comes with the product but I do know that there are some people who do.

Laws on Courtship - guest blogger post by Fauxx

I once had a stack of romantic quotes.

I found it among my aunt's college-period possessions. A hundred or more cards each with a hit-or-miss cheesy quote in every one. I remember ravaging through them like a fat kid on M&Ms. Twice. You know, that time when younglings are all curious and ideal about these stuff and trying to figure out their rhythm in what we can say, their mating dance. And there I was, focused on the art of tugging young and tender heartstrings. 

She gave it to me, thinking maybe, I'd need it someday. Thinking about it now, I am supposed to give those cards away to someone special (at the time) or whatnot. But I didn't. I wanted to keep all of them instead. It made me feel older and braver. Less fearing of things I do not know about. And I, am in love with Love.

Girls would swoon over them. I did not care that much.

And I loved the words and prose in those cards. Some even snuck up to one of my many love letters after. And all of them end up getting hoodwinked by a friend of mine. I have no idea where they are now, except I meet them in text messages, in status updates, in movies. I never had the chance to use those cards.

One did stay with me. Metaphysically.

"I don't believe in courtship. It's just a waste of time. If I love a person, I'll tell her right away. But for you, I will make an exception… just love me now and I'll court you forever…"

Photo by Lestha1

My one rule in courtship is not to actually do it.

Now, when I say courtship, I really mean trying to woo the girl's affections. That is the waste of time part. Making efforts to make the girl like you when she's predisposed to not actually liking you. Of course, this entailed problems when you actually like a certain girl but she doesn't know who you are. I learned how to make those unrequited love-bouts abrupt. But that's another story.

What I've learned about not-courting, when I kind of actually am, is that I love it.

I love the chase, so to speak. I like how you become a love song magnet for every other song that plays on the radio which seemingly sings about your fortune and predicament. I love how Leigh Nash's Need To Be Next To You sounds better each time. I love how I jump up from each love letter, each secret glance, each nervous walk in proximity and each text message. The preparation you make, the perfumes you wear and the faltering voice you have when trying to speak to her. Hell, I even love the heartbreak that sometimes comes with the package.

As Incubus said so, Love hurts and sometimes it's a good hurt. And sings when it transcends the bad things.

Okay, so back to courtship. I didn't know back then that some women (like some men) are actually cunning, scheming, egotistical, self-absorbed, insensitive, narcissistic assholes. They use you and your feelings as tools for their own purposes and vagenda (new word from Fringe, look it up). I thought that these people are the scums of the earth, love-wise. But the worst kind are those who are too proud to admit, or ignorant to know, that they are.

And that, is yet another story.

Keep those politically incorrect words to heart. It's not being jaded, it's being wise. That's heads-up number 1: beware of these soul-sucking assholes. Heads-up number 2: love yourself. So when shit starts hitting the fan, friends wouldn't catch your corpse in a ditch or a random billboard in EDSA trying to kill yourself. (and failing, which would be a total hassle too) Worse, you go all-out emo and bitch on Facebook for months.

All things said, I still think courtship is worth it. Go for it. Savor the moment. Seize the day. Heart in hand. Head over heels. Swan dive. All or nothing. (And this does not only pertain to men in general. Women court men too.) Like for the sake of liking. Love for the sake of loving. (Just know your limits)

Photo taken with permission from Maprang.

Kiss dating goodbye and kiss another hello.

Photo taken with permission from Maprang.

I say this, because I know how frustrating it is to not do it as often as you had the opportunity to. If courting to some is a series of mistakes, I wished I had a few good seasons. Even bad ones. Love for the sake of loving. Until you still can. Until you fall out of love with Love. Because someday, you will learn how to not want to court someone else.

Photo by: Stip Angie

I know how to live in that inopportune moment when you come across the person you know you are going to spend your life with, and a hundred cards about love and courtship goes to waste. In fact, no number of cheesy love cards can prepare you when you actually meet him or her. 

Photo by Lestha1

It is so frustrating.

Photo by: Jerrick Ngo

Anyway, that's all. Just a heads up.

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NOTE: The author is trying to sneak in the word "whatnot" to everything he writes. 

I have decided to have guest bloggers every now and then; I don't have a definite plan or schedule with guest bloggers so expect their posts every once in a while or more often than mine. =P 

My first guest blogger is a confidant & critique, he goes by the name Fauxx in the blogging world. He knows I WUBBB HIM so and I support him - like a mom supports his little boy!  He's my perverted protege! =P

I have always been a fan of his writing style but don't tell him, ok? Shhhh.... =P

Let me know what you think. I know my blog really doesn't contain any input about real life so here you go, from a guy's perspective.  Would you like to see more blog posts? I won't be just focusing on makeup and fashion, ok?

What's your take on relationships? Faux will be monitoring your questions.

By the way I was tagged by Michelle and I did a video. :/ I know the audio is bad... It's my fault. I only recorded it using the webcam because I was too lazy to set up the camera. :p

Anyway, it's better if you don't watch it ROTFL!!! =)) I'm tagging all the Pinoy followers of my blog.

NOTE: I randomly grabbed some pictures from the net. The other photos belong to me and some people I know.